To live feels pointless. Is not that i want to die, but what's out there for me? Just keep going to work? Nothing makes sense. To move. Not to move. Be good or bad at something. The weather. Who cares? I find everything absurd. Get money. Buy a house. Be a slave. Be on sale. I do not own my time. Life seems boring. Empty. Plain. Save. Spend. Save again. What's the goal? What's the end? Why even bother? Learn to be alone. Find calm. Run from myself.