Edendale - July 10, 2020

I am in bed. It's only 19:16, pretty early for my Argentinian schedule. Today was a rainy day, a cold one, against what the forecast weather had announced. I got up late and went for a wee run. Nothing extraordinary. But today I had this thought, this vision that changes everything. Three days ago I went to the nursery, worked, and did my workouts back home. But I was too tired to study English. So, I started torturing myself because of what I didn't do that day. And then, today I even thought about not going on our little trip because of staying studying? WHAT?! I came to New Zealand first place because I wanted to travel the world. And yes, English is going to help me but there is no point in punishing me. Life is one, to live. I should be upset if I don't spend my time (which is limited, because soon or late I will die) LIVING. Being happy, enjoying what I am doing. Then I read this Bukowski's phrase: “People are strange: They are constantly angered by trivial things, but on a major matter like totally wasting their lives, they hardly seem to notice.” I am going to work daily on this.